"You laugh in my face when i say i want to be an actress. I’ll laugh in your face when you ask for my autograph one day."

" Sometimes I see a picture of you happy with new life. I wonder if you ever feel sad. I think of all of the wonderful things I have experienced since we’ve terminated our old life together. I see things that you really wanted are now accomplished. It makes me happy that although our new lives may sometimes not be as good as our old one, we are much better people because of it. We live on, we learn & we can still love."

According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other half. I hope that my other half is out there somewhere.

give me a fighting chance?

i want to make some new friends but still keep the old friends even though I’m not always included, theyr'e the only people i can turn too. I have no one else really. i need to meet someone who amazes me again, who puts the spark back in my heart. i've become a boring mess no onewants to be around, not even myself.

i love you like family, even if we aren't that close anymore.♥

remember,

The girl in this picture is probably one of the best friends i've ever had. i think we both fucked up the friendship beyond repair though, i hope one day i might be close with her again like i was. she is probably the funniest,most immature yet amazing girl i have ever met and i'm ever so sorry for fucking it all up. i was probably happiest when i met her and now i can't seem to find anyone who treats me as good as she did, despite the shit i did to her without even realising it. god onlly knows why you even wanted to be friends, i was nothing like you. you changed me so much and im so thankful for it. but... too much shits changed and you probably wouldnt want to be friends.

~Merryn Louise Jones;

I am no longer a myspace whore.

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i fucking hate the people who organised soundwave with a passion. because you ran out of water and had no shade i had to leave. i didnt even get to see the bands i realy wanted to see. not to mention the people i havent seen in ages either! i am so horribly burnt and heatstroked ugh. no one understands how badly i wanted to placebo. and now i will never get to, unless i run to the airport with the money i dont have, get on a plane and go to the perth show that i dont have a ticket for. i hate my life more than anything right now.

and i have to go to newcastle with mother tomorrow for a fun day. gonna be heaps good with sunburn and shit hey.
all i want to do is cry. nothing is working out for me anymore. i knew things wouldnt last long. i finally remember the feeling of being this uinhappy with life.

de-form winter

Just thought i'd try it out. everyone else has one, and it reminds of the truthbox app so i thought "What the hell, why not?"

mm great

my computer that hasnt had virus protec tion in like 2 months
just infoprmed me i have like 9 trojan viruses or someshit
ugh hatin' on life atm -.-

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	High
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
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oh great i love my life -.-

do this test at http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

ridicule is nothing to be scared of.

my life is brilliant, minus the fact i miss you like crazy and i want you to comeback to me.
maybe not today, maybe not soon, but eventually.
maybe in a year? like i last told you
it would be less than that now..
so one day, one day i expect to look at my phone and read "one new message", or "incoming call from.." or even just to see your face.
that would be, fantastic.

but in lighter news, my bestfriend makes me happier than the 3275842 cigarettes i useds to smoke each day : )
and my boyfriend, well...hes splendid.
its nice to have someone around all the time, who buys me food most days and doesnt get angry when i eat all of his n_n
he also stays at my house when im afraid of cockroaches and dont wanna sleep alone.
he cant roll smokes to save his life,
and he has the loudest voice to date.
i hate the undies he wears, and his hair makes him look like astro boy.
he gives the worst hickeys and breaks half the things he touches.
but its ok because as i said before hes is plain splendid and i dont care how spastic he is n_n
&his mine mine mine.
♥

spite & malice;

im probably happier than i have been in a long time :)
your no where near as good or cute as a love bird and a tank of fish,
but you will do.
i wonder if you can put up with me for more than a month though >_<
im oh so annoying and hard to tolerate, im intensely childish and dim witted.
your so going to run away.... ahhaha

resting bird, content kitten

no one would understand how angry i am right now.
i knew you were a using cunt but the fact that i now know you do say shit behind my back?
you dont even know me that well!
so you have no right to say shit about me when i havent even done anything to you.
im heaps cingy and obsessed eh?
considering i didnt talk to you for most of last night, and i didnt follow you someother cunt who was ment to be my fucking friend and then fucked you!
i love how great people today are.
lets see how many comments i get on this about me whinging eh.
the heat is making me more angry about this whole thing!
i cant relax at all.
im sick of being nice to you and inviting you to parties and shit and having you either use me or now just ditch me?
friends?
i wonder what your basis for comparison is.

hey hey blake hearts

i love how i make lovely attempts to talk to you, and what?
no reply?
ive messaged,emails and msn'ed you?
why wont you talk to me, what have i done?
i do not recall doing anything to you.
why must you lie and say im so important and then not speak to me and gah
LIES LIES LIES

:(
all i wanted was a friend, but you used me & said awful things about me behind my back;

you told me id always have you, and you'd always be here?
well where are you know..

i hope you fucking read this