I aspire to oneday live here, or somewhere like it. it's breathtaking.

LOVE? or something like it.

“We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime.
It’s easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade.
Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be
someoneI haven’t even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain
people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what
love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your
life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of
80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively,
but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets
the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person whodefines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone
else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins.
They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.”

3532, i want you too :)

"Every night, for 5 months, when it’s 11:11, I wish for you guys to break up. I love you both, but you belong with me and you know it."

"You laugh in my face when i say i want to be an actress. I’ll laugh in your face when you ask for my autograph one day."

" Sometimes I see a picture of you happy with new life. I wonder if you ever feel sad. I think of all of the wonderful things I have experienced since we’ve terminated our old life together. I see things that you really wanted are now accomplished. It makes me happy that although our new lives may sometimes not be as good as our old one, we are much better people because of it. We live on, we learn & we can still love."

According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other half. I hope that my other half is out there somewhere.

give me a fighting chance?

i want to make some new friends but still keep the old friends even though I’m not always included, theyr'e the only people i can turn too. I have no one else really. i need to meet someone who amazes me again, who puts the spark back in my heart. i've become a boring mess no onewants to be around, not even myself.

i love you like family, even if we aren't that close anymore.♥

remember,

The girl in this picture is probably one of the best friends i've ever had. i think we both fucked up the friendship beyond repair though, i hope one day i might be close with her again like i was. she is probably the funniest,most immature yet amazing girl i have ever met and i'm ever so sorry for fucking it all up. i was probably happiest when i met her and now i can't seem to find anyone who treats me as good as she did, despite the shit i did to her without even realising it. god onlly knows why you even wanted to be friends, i was nothing like you. you changed me so much and im so thankful for it. but... too much shits changed and you probably wouldnt want to be friends.

~Merryn Louise Jones;

I am no longer a myspace whore.

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i fucking hate the people who organised soundwave with a passion. because you ran out of water and had no shade i had to leave. i didnt even get to see the bands i realy wanted to see. not to mention the people i havent seen in ages either! i am so horribly burnt and heatstroked ugh. no one understands how badly i wanted to placebo. and now i will never get to, unless i run to the airport with the money i dont have, get on a plane and go to the perth show that i dont have a ticket for. i hate my life more than anything right now.

and i have to go to newcastle with mother tomorrow for a fun day. gonna be heaps good with sunburn and shit hey.
all i want to do is cry. nothing is working out for me anymore. i knew things wouldnt last long. i finally remember the feeling of being this uinhappy with life.

de-form winter

Just thought i'd try it out. everyone else has one, and it reminds of the truthbox app so i thought "What the hell, why not?"

mm great

my computer that hasnt had virus protec tion in like 2 months
just infoprmed me i have like 9 trojan viruses or someshit
ugh hatin' on life atm -.-

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizoid Personality Disorder:	Very High
Schizotypal Personality Disorder:	High
Antisocial Personality Disorder:	High
Borderline Personality Disorder:	Very High
Histrionic Personality Disorder:	Low
Narcissistic Personality Disorder:	High
Avoidant Personality Disorder:	High
Dependent Personality Disorder:	High
Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder:	High
-- Take the Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Info --

oh great i love my life -.-

do this test at http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv

ridicule is nothing to be scared of.

my life is brilliant, minus the fact i miss you like crazy and i want you to comeback to me.
maybe not today, maybe not soon, but eventually.
maybe in a year? like i last told you
it would be less than that now..
so one day, one day i expect to look at my phone and read "one new message", or "incoming call from.." or even just to see your face.
that would be, fantastic.

but in lighter news, my bestfriend makes me happier than the 3275842 cigarettes i useds to smoke each day : )
and my boyfriend, well...hes splendid.
its nice to have someone around all the time, who buys me food most days and doesnt get angry when i eat all of his n_n
he also stays at my house when im afraid of cockroaches and dont wanna sleep alone.
he cant roll smokes to save his life,
and he has the loudest voice to date.
i hate the undies he wears, and his hair makes him look like astro boy.
he gives the worst hickeys and breaks half the things he touches.
but its ok because as i said before hes is plain splendid and i dont care how spastic he is n_n
&his mine mine mine.
♥