LOVE? or something like it.

“We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime.
It’s easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade.
Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be
someoneI haven’t even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain
people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what
love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your
life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of
80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively,
but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets
the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person whodefines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone
else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins.
They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.”