today is my day off, i woke up at about 12 because my room is at the front of the houe and the sun was heating it up like a marshmallow.
i triewd to get back to sleep but instead lay here for an hour because i realised i was alone.
i hate waking up without you in my bed, and i hate falling asleep without you.
i hate more that i have to fall asleep and wake up to the fact that you are no longer mine.

im scared of who im becoming, but i dont know what else to turn to.