you

seriously have ruined my life soo much. you deffinatly cheated on me on friday eh? you have made me the most miserable mess to date and you say you werent happy with me but you're not happy now? yeh i bet you'll be happier without me. from the looks of your past it wont take you long to move oin and in with another girl. i should've listened to your ex when she warned me about you. and maybe i wouldnt be like this now. beause of you, i'ver lost all hope in myself and others, and im scared to get out of bed in the morning because i know what loneliness is again. i cant stop thinkning about you becaus ei love you so much, i want you back, but you just want to be friends and i know that we should never be together because i failed at being a good girlfriend, i didnt make you happy. i tried so hard. i guess ill return the half of your birthday present i got eh...

hot potato, hot potato.

hahahha daley showed me this today and i laughed my heart out

potato

♥

try and tell me this isnt amazing music?

boo

^^^^^^^^^^ open me :)

♥

"I think if we all acted the way we felt, four out of eight people at a dinner table would be sitting there sobbing."

-Jim Carrey

i love zac

he is adoreable and all mine, im going to help you get a better job so you can support both of us because im too lazy to get a job :) i love youuuuuuuuuuuuu ♥♥♥♥

list of things i want/need. (will probably updaye frequently hehe)

all the studio ghibli movies i dont have

chobits boxset

fruits basket boxset

owl bedding, preferably the ones from target

a grey bunny

genesis membership

hair crimper

extensions

the oc boxset

digimon world 4 + a whole heap of gamecube games and maybe the sims

calumon plush toy

guilmon plush toy

digmon rumble arena 1

terriermon ans lopmon plush



a white kitten and a black one


and maybe a bestfriend?

Open
these
two
links
one
after
another
in
a
new
tab.
Don’t
visit
them,
just
listen.

link 1

link 2

and link 1 + http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k6RO5OPv5e0

enjoy♥

probably the most beautiful lyrics ever ~

The phone slips from a loose grip
Words were missed then, some apology
I didn't want to tell you this
No, it's just some guy she's been hanging out with
I don't know, the past couple weeks I guess
Well, thank you and hang up the phone
Let the funeral start
Hear the casket close
Let's pin split-black ribbon to your overcoat
Well, laughter pours from under doors
In this house, I don't understand that sound no more
Seems artificial, like a T.V. set

Well, haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
This weight it must be satisfied
You offer only one reply
You know not what you do
But you tear and tear your hair from roots
Of that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die
Well ha ha ha

I remember everything
The words we spoke on freezing South Street
And all those mornings watching you get ready for school
You combed your hair inside that mirror
The one you painted blue and glued with jewelry tears
Something about those bright colors
would always make you feel better
But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren't meant for anyone
It's just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you

You said you hate my suffering
And you understood
And you'd take care of me
You'd always be there
Well where are you now?

Haligh, haligh, a lie, haligh
The plans were never finalized
But left to hang like yarn and twine
Dangling before my eyes
As you tear and tear your hair from roots
Of that same head you have twice removed now
A lock of hair you said would prove
Our love would never die

And I sing and sing of awful things
The pleasure that my sadness brings
As my fingers press onto the strings
In yet another clumsy chord
Haligh, haligh, an awful lie
This weight would now be satisfied
I'm gonna give you only one reply
I know not who I am

But I talk in the mirror
To the stranger that appears
Our conversations are circles
Always one sided
Nothing is clear

Except we keep coming back
To this meaning that I lack
He says the choices were given
Now you must live them
Or just not live
But do you want that?

I aspire to oneday live here, or somewhere like it. it's breathtaking.

LOVE? or something like it.

“We all have the potential to fall in love a thousand times in our lifetime.
It’s easy. The first girl I ever loved was someone I knew in sixth grade.
Her name was Missy; we talked about horses. The last girl I love will be
someoneI haven’t even met yet, probably. They all count. But there are certain
people you love who do something else; they define how you classify what
love is supposed to feel like. These are the most important people in your
life, and you’ll meet maybe four or five of these people over the span of
80 years. But there’s still one more tier to all this; there is always one person you love who becomes that definition. It usually happens retrospectively,
but it happens eventually. This is the person who unknowingly sets
the template for what you will always love about other people, even if some of these loveable qualities are self-destructive and unreasonable. The person whodefines your understanding of love is not inherently different than anyone
else, and they’re often just the person you happen to meet the first time you really, really, want to love someone. But that person still wins.
They win, and you lose. Because for the rest of your life, they will control how you feel about everyone else.”

3532, i want you too :)

"Every night, for 5 months, when it’s 11:11, I wish for you guys to break up. I love you both, but you belong with me and you know it."

"You laugh in my face when i say i want to be an actress. I’ll laugh in your face when you ask for my autograph one day."

" Sometimes I see a picture of you happy with new life. I wonder if you ever feel sad. I think of all of the wonderful things I have experienced since we’ve terminated our old life together. I see things that you really wanted are now accomplished. It makes me happy that although our new lives may sometimes not be as good as our old one, we are much better people because of it. We live on, we learn & we can still love."

According to Greek mythology, humans were originally created with four legs, four arms and a head with two faces. Fearing their power, Zeus split them apart, condemning them to spend their lives in search of their other half. I hope that my other half is out there somewhere.

give me a fighting chance?

i want to make some new friends but still keep the old friends even though I’m not always included, theyr'e the only people i can turn too. I have no one else really. i need to meet someone who amazes me again, who puts the spark back in my heart. i've become a boring mess no onewants to be around, not even myself.

i love you like family, even if we aren't that close anymore.♥

remember,

The girl in this picture is probably one of the best friends i've ever had. i think we both fucked up the friendship beyond repair though, i hope one day i might be close with her again like i was. she is probably the funniest,most immature yet amazing girl i have ever met and i'm ever so sorry for fucking it all up. i was probably happiest when i met her and now i can't seem to find anyone who treats me as good as she did, despite the shit i did to her without even realising it. god onlly knows why you even wanted to be friends, i was nothing like you. you changed me so much and im so thankful for it. but... too much shits changed and you probably wouldnt want to be friends.

~Merryn Louise Jones;

I am no longer a myspace whore.